Good morning! Good afternoon! Good evening!

Whenever you see this message, it’s meant for you. I started this day by seeing the number 1, 555 and 44 appearing in one line together. I’m feeling it’s really a good sign for this week and the next to come. I love finding this kind of repeated numbers appearing since it’s also messages to pay attention to. When you ask for help, you might get the answer through anything, it can be directly sent to you or indirectly through people, signs and anything around you. It’s important to be in the present moment and aware of the messages you ask for.

Number 1 symbolizes a new beginning. You are about to complete something big, whether it’s a long time project, study or other thing. It’s interesting, if you are reading this post right after it’s being published, we are also having full moon today. Full moon is also representing completion and ending of a chapter. As this current chapter ends, a new beginning will start. Moon is often related to dreams and clarity. In the end of chapter, you are able to get clarity toward your dreams.

Number 5 represents change, new opportunities, travel, expansion and freedom. When it appears in repeated number like 555, it strengthen its meaning. 555 is a major change about to come which leads you to freedom you are longing for. This major change requires letting go or ending of anything which no longer serve you for the good such as relationship, job, or your living environment. Sometimes it hurts to release or let go of something we used to be with, but this changes  are necessary for your further step, for your growth. Give space to the new thing which are better and about to give values into your life. It’s time to cut the cord for unhealthy relationship which has been hurting you for long time or holding you back from the necessary steps toward your dreams. This old has served its purpose to give you lessons in this life, so it’s time to let it go, be thankful for the knowledge you gained through this journey with them.  

Number 44 indicates that you are currently on the right path, keep going because your prayer, hope and wishes are always heard by God. You are being supported and guided. The answers you need will come in the right timing. The abundance you asked for is on its way. Don’t be afraid, you are not alone in this journey. You have blessed by the inner strength and wisdom to reach your dreams. 

Number 4 always reminds me of earth and finance. You are about to reach the financial stability too after being struggling for so long. Your hard work will soon be paid off, and you are going to harvest what you have planted before.

It’s also a number of congratulations. You are being reminded to congratulate your hard work and accomplishments. Celebrate your progress and growth. Appreciate how far you’ve come. Keep doing the good works.

For me, since it’s mirror number and 4 is about stability, it might be a sign that you are going to meet  people who are similar to you. You have the similar qualities and you might help each other or work together in this journey to reach  stability. It might be a help you’ve been asking for. Be open to the opportunities which being offered to you. Don’t be afraid. If you are radiating good energy, it will attract good people too. You will get what you have sent out.

To resume all of these numbers appearing today, it’s important to keep the balance of mind, body and spirit, you have been going on long journey. Pay attention to yourself, your body needs, your soul needs. You need the balance, keep the good food, being around inspiring people and taking some time to be with yourself to reflect. Be grateful for everything you’ve done and got today. You are so loved. Keep going.  You’ve gone this far.

You might question a lot about your life. Where should you go? Which one is the best? What do you have to do next? How can you reach your goals? Why do you get stuck in the current situation?

You might want many things. You might have a list of goals you should accomplish in certain time. You might pick up other people’s dreams too. Your parents’ dreams. Your friends’ dreams. Your neighbors’ dreams. You might admire other people who are successful and want to be like them. You might feel that you don’t have anything to help you achieve that. You might want the world to know who you really are. You might want people to understand what you are good at.

You don’t have to.

You don’t have to get the answers for all your questions right now. You don’t have to know everything at the same time. 

You don’t have to have a lot of things like other people do. You don’t have to accomplish your goals in short time. Even if other people can reach similar dreams shortly, it doesn’t mean their journey will be the same as yours. You don’t have to achieve other people’s dreams which are projected on you. Their dreams are their. Your dreams only belong to you. You don’t have to be the same like your parents, your siblings, your friends, your neighbors. You are you. You are unique and sent to this world with certain purpose which might be totally different from your family. You don’t have to get all the help you need right now. 

You don't have to explain yourself to everyone you meet. People who belong to you will be there without you ask them to. You are already loved without that 10 chapters explanation. You don't have to prove anything so hard to other people who aren't meant to be with you. You don't have to sacrifice yourself in order to fit in. When people ignore you, it means you are running in different frequency which don't meet each other. 

No need to rush.
Don't worry.
Your hard work will be paid off when you put good intentions in it.

What’s meant for you will certainly come for you. Set your goals, your intentions, do the very small things you can right now. It doesn’t have to be starting a big project. It doesn’t have to be building global partnership. It doesn’t have to be invest in large amount of money. It doesn’t have to be anything big at first. A small step does count and it will change your life as you continue walking on your path.  Keep looking at your north star, your sun, your whatever you are looking up to which sparks the fire inside you. Your answers will come. You effort will be blessed. Your finish line will be closer and closer as you don’t stop your small steps.

You don’t have to be the fastest

You don’t have to get it all now

Because you certainly will

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Photo by Tomoko Uji

It reminds me of one day in November. As I said before, I got some big projects to handle and it’s pretty hard for me even though I’ve been doing this for 3 years. It used to turn into digestive problem after the projects finished, but this year as I could release all of the heavy thoughts into tears, I’m feeling healthier after that. That day when I cried for so long, that made my eyes swollen. At night, I got 2 cute fluffy dogs appearing in my dream and I took them for a walk to the nearest park. They are golden retriever and brown west highland terrier. I woke up happily in the next morning with the calmness and warm feeling. It’s said that dreaming of dogs is mainly a good sign, it’s a symbol of protection and success. I’m grateful that God sent these 2 cute dogs to accompany me in my dream, to ensure that I’m safe and protected. 

Okay. So, I got the word “safe” right after fresh for this month weekly message. One song which popped into my head was Sabrina Carpenter version of Safe and Sound (the original version is sung by Taylor Swift feat. The Civil Wars) *). This keyword strongly delivers a message that you are safe on your chosen path. You are being protected and guided. As this song is one of my favorites which brings calmness, I feel like this next week will bring similar calmness and peace.

Related post : Weekly Message : Fresh 

You might doubt your own self for starting something new, you sometimes doubt yourself to not being able to live without the things you’ve let go whether it’s a relationship, physical things or old habits. But, as you start and keep doing it repeatedly, you’ll feel that certainty, that you are going to able to get through this path safely. You will be okay.

This week’s color is blue appearing along with the images of seashell, water, hand and plant. Blue represents peace, sincerity, freedom, imagination, wisdom, stability, truth, intelligent and trust. By these images and color, I feel like this week will bring you a state of calmness and peace that you are able to express your ideas into reality freely. You have the power and ability to do what is necessary. You have to know that you are safe, God is protecting and guiding you, never let you get lost in this path. Keep going, keep showing up. The things you are creating are going to bring positive impacts for your surrounding. You have inner wisdom and messages to spread to the world, you have to trust your own self. Even if it seems not turn out good, or it doesn’t reach anyone, but it will, certainly. Everything you planted is going to be harvested someday. 

Don’t stop because you feel like not getting the responses you expected, don’t stop just because you are doing different things among the people doing similar things. Stop when you feel it’s necessary, to take a rest and come back to yourself. Everyone gives different color to this life which makes it beautiful, don’t try to fade your own color in order to fit in to the what’s called society standard. You are safe being in your color, singing your own song, playing your own music. Just because people seem to not pay attention nor listen to you, it doesn’t lessen your value. You might 100 steps ahead of the majority of people, that your messages seem not delivered as you want. That’s your uniqueness. 

You don’t have to reach million followers. You don’t have to get bunch of likes everyday. You don’t have to get nice comments for your artwork. You might launch your ideas and feel like nobody seeing it. That’s okay. You are still alive. It doesn’t make you inferior. Just be you. Be in your own element, bring your own color, be thankful that you are given this unique color to express and contribute to this world in this lifetime. You are completely safe being you. God trusts you that you are going to make positive changes that you’re sent to this world in this physical body with certain abilities and gifts for that purpose. So, you have to trust yourself too. There’s nothing wrong with you. You are safe, protected and guided. You are loved.

Note : blue represents calmness, seashell represent birth, water represents positive impact, hand means power, and plant means beginning. It’s only the beginning of your long journey, everything you are about to give or have given birth to, will bring changes in positive way to the world, you have the power for it. You have to trust yourself and keep doing what is needed. You are safe. 

Journal Prompts :

1. If you were to learn another language, which language would you choose and why?

2. If you had to write a book, what would it be about?

3. What is the biggest stress in your life right now?

4. What superpower do you wish you had?

5. What do you do when you're sad?

*) Related song :

Safe and Sound (Taylor Swift, The Civil War)

Safe and Sound (Sabrina Carpenter)

How about trying to be different version of you for one day? When you sometimes  feel disappointment for both yourself and others, or you often feel like being in the place of a victim and powerless, you might want to change something in your life. “If this person treats me better, I would reach that point”, “If this event never happened, I would never be like this”, “If I weren’t born poor, I would be happy now”.

There are things you can’t drive into your direction. Sometimes those things aren’t essential ones, but we give too much exposure to them. It turns out to seem big and important, but it’s actually not. Wanting to control everything leaves you feeling exhausted and feeling like a victim in the end of the day. 

Something you definitely could change is yourself, how you see things, how you react to circumstances, how you perceive others, how you appreciate the present moment. You may not be able to change events and people around you, no matter how hard you resist some circumstances, it will still happen anyway. You’ll be only hurting yourself by thinking negatively about a situation, it won’t go away until it’s meant to. All you can do is shifting your reaction and thoughts about it. 

Only for one day, try to act differently to the things you used to see as enemies or difficulties. Ignore the urge to drive everything onto your way. Move into neutral side. It’s sometimes not easy being neutral. But, objective and nonjudgmental thoughts lead you to clarity. Clouded mind often puts you into a place of being victim and blaming others, especially in the situation which are new and turbulent. See everything as lessons. Instead of asking from the place of victim by “Why me?”, change it into “Why did it happen?” “What messages do they try to deliver?”

Don’t beat yourself up when you make mistakes or face failures. Sometimes you resist because you are afraid of making the same mistakes. Fear is not a bad thing. Fear is your gift to protect you from danger. There are times when fear goes out to everything both new and old things. It’s sometimes required to listen to your fear to manage your next steps, but don’t let it stop you from achieving your dreams and your life purpose. You are allowed to take a break and plan for the next thing to do. You are allowed to change your direction if it’s necessary. You are allowed to ask for help. If you used to stick on fixed and controllable things, let yourself know that life has good and bad things. Life also gives you both controllable and uncontrollable stuff. You can’t expect your everyday will 100% go smoothly as your plans. But, you will be okay in any situation.

Being positive isn’t about having good mood all the time, but also accepting that sometimes we experience ups and downs. Accept both the good and the bad, then release them when they are meant to go.

Do different things from your routine and see what happens. People around you might react differently, circumstances might feel different, and you might get something new to learn and to be proud of yourself in the end of the day. There are also possibilities where nothing around you will change too. You can’t expect people to treat you nicely because of your nice behavior toward them. You can’t expect the problems will instantly go away after changing your perspective. It seems unfair, but nobody knows exactly what life wants to teach us.

Everything needs time. As time goes by you will get better understanding of things around you, and react wiser toward everything. You will find inner peace and able to see things clearly. You are no longer being a victim, because you have decided to be the hero of your own story.

Sebagian besar bulan November masih bersuhu tinggi seperti bulan sebelumnya, meski di 3 hari pertama sempat turun gerimis, keadaan yang membuat saya tidak bisa tidur nyenyak ini bertahan hingga seminggu setelah fase mercury retrograde berakhir. Baru setelahnya, saat ibu saya sudah berangkat ke luar kota, sore harinya turun hujan yang sangat lebat, yang tentu saja membuat suhu di malam hari lebih sejuk sehingga saya bisa tidur dengan nyenyak hingga esok harinya. Meski suhu pagi hari terukur 22 derajat, namun rasanya tidak sepanas pagi-pagi sebelumnya. Sepertinya sudah masuk musim dingin? Semoga saja ya, hahaha, biar saya lebih cepat masuk ke mode hibernasi akhir tahun.

Untuk pertama kalinya setelah sekian kali ingin datang ke JXB, akhirnya saya bisa datang ke acara Female Daily yang diadakan paling dekat dengan tempat tinggal saya yaitu di Surabaya. Sebenarnya saya tidak tahu banyak tempat di Surabaya, namun ya sudahlah, saya memutuskan untuk berangkat sendiri. Ternyata ada teman saya yang tinggal di Surabaya yang juga mau datang ke SXB, jadinya saya tidak sendirian, mengingat ternyata eventnya diadakan di lantai paling atas Tunjungan Plaza. Sebenarnya saya mau beli lipstik dan hydrating toner, namun kemudian saya teringat toner hada labo saya yang super eternal dan tidak bisa habis masih ada 2 botol lagi, dan saya masih punya beberapa lipstik maybelline yang masih tersentuh ujungnya. Demi menjadi konsumen yang baik, saya harus menghabiskan dulu semuanya sebelum membeli yang baru. Hihi.

Saya yang selama ini kalau naik kereta suka beli tiket langsung di loket, kaget karena menurut petugas loket, mulai 1 September lalu pemesanan tiket hanya bisa dilakukan lewat aplikasi KAI Access. Sedangkan pembelian di loket hanya dilayani 3 jam sebelum keberangkatan, jika tiket masih ada. Seminggu sebelum berangkat, saya sudah menginstal aplikasi ini, namun stasiun keberangkatan dan tujuan saya tidak bisa muncul di aplikasi. Saya yang harusnya berangkat hari Sabtu jadi komplain ke petugas loket karena tiket fisik sudah habis sementara aplikasi saya tidak bisa digunakan. Akhirnya aplikasi di handphone saya diutak atik, diuninstal diinstal lagi direstart hingga beberapa kali. Entahlah. Baru bisa muncul semua stasiunnya. Entah apa yang terjadi sebelumnya, padahal saya sudah menginstal aplikasi sesuai petunjuk di stasiun. 

Akhirnya saya berangkat hari Minggu, karena tiket keberangkatan yang tersisa hanya hari Minggu setelah subuh. Haha. Alhasil saya sarapan di Surabaya begitu sampai disana. 

Pelajaran yang bisa saya ambil dari kejadian ini adalah saya harusnya komplain soal aplikasinya begitu saya tidak bisa menemukan stasiun yang akan saya tuju, sehingga saya bisa berangkat di hari yang sudah saya rencanakan. Selain itu, untuk tips, saat mengakses di siang hari memang sering beberapa stasiun tidak bisa muncul, jadi mending kegiatan pesan memesan ini dilakukan di pagi hari waktu masih segar-segarnya, haha.

Penggunaan tiket online ini tentunya akan mengurangi penggunaan kertas sebagai tiket fisik, dan tentu saja dimaksudkan agar lebih praktis, bisa beli tiket di rumah. Namun, sepertinya memang harus ada peningkatan di bidang teknis untuk mengurangi kejadian macam yang saya alami. 

Untuk tiket kepulangan dari Surabaya, saya berhasil dapat kereta terakhir dan saya tidak dapat tempat duduk, tapi tidak apa-apa yang penting saya bisa pulang, begitu pikir saya saat memesan tiketnya.

Begitu kereta datang, saya memilih gerbong terakhir yang biasanya ada nomor 5 di badannya. Namun, gerbong yang saya naiki tidak ada nomornya, karena saya sudah memutuskan mau naik di gerbong paling belakang.

Gerbong tersebut isinya staf kereta api, begitu saya masuk, mereka mempersilakan saya duduk dimanapun yang saya mau. Begitu pula rombongan sekeluarga yang kebetulan tidak dapat tiket duduk, juga dipersilakan duduk dimanapun mereka mau. Sepanjang perjalanan, staf yang duduk di kursi paling belakang, dangdutan dong. Jadinya gerbong ini tidak membuat saya ngantuk, tidak seperti pengalaman saya sebelumnya saat naik kereta paling akhir dari Surabaya dimana saya selalu ketiduran dan terbangun begitu melewati Sidoarjo dan Pasuruan. 

Bisa dibilang saya dan semua penumpang yang dipersilakan duduk dimanapun dalam gerbong tersebut dapat keberuntungan. Hingga di stasiun tujuan terakhir di Malang, tidak ada satupun dari kami yang digusur oleh pemilik kursi yang kami duduki, jadi itu benar-benar kursi tak berpenghuni mungkin ya. Selain itu, menurut ibu-ibu yang sekeluarganya tidak dapat tempat duduk, yang akhirnya duduk di samping saya, di gerbong sebelumnya cukup penuh dengan penumpang yang berdiri hingga lesehan di dekat perbatasan gerbong. Meski sebelumnya saat saya tidak kebagian tiket duduk, saya selalu memilih gerbong terakhir, namun ini pertama kalinya saya dapat satu gerbong spesial, tanpa perlu pindah pindah duduk hingga sampai di Malang. 

Saya memutuskan untuk membuat post bulanan dan mingguan yang berisi pesan-pesan random yang saya dapatkan. Tujuannya adalah untuk memberi semangat, terutama untuk diri saya sendiri. Saya awalnya berencana memulainya di bulan Desember, namun saya akhirnya memutuskan untuk membuat trial postnya untuk minggu terakhir bulan November ini. Post trial ini pun juga membantu saya untuk tetap menghadapi kehidupan, haha. Bulan ini saya dapat project yang sudah jadi langganan yang selalu membuat saya stress karenanya. Post yang saya buat ini berguna sekali untuk menyadarkan diri saya sendiri. Sejauh ini saya sudah membuat 2 post mingguan dan 1 post bulanan untuk Desember. Semuanya dalam bahasa Inggris. Silakan membacanya jika tertarik.

Baca juga : Weekly Message : Yes!

Baca juga : Monthly Message : December, A New Start

Baca juga : Weekly Message : Fresh

If You Don’t Love Yourself adalah track dari album The Script yang berjudul Sunsets & Full Moon. Dari judulnya sudah ketahuan ini lagu tentang apa, jika kita tidak bisa mencintai diri sendiri maka kita tidak bisa mencintai siapapun. Sangat related dengan kehidupan saya, dimana saya di masa lalu merasa bahwa cinta adalah sesuatu yang eksternal yang tidak bisa ditebak dan bisa membuat kita salah langkah. Seiring bertambahnya usia, saya menyadari bahwa cinta itu tidak perlu kita cari karena kita sendiri adalah cinta. Cinta adalah sesuatu yang indah, yang selama ini dikatakan sebagai sumber kesedihan hingga keputusasaan adalah ego manusia. Seperti kata lirik lagu grup favorit saya C-ute : all of that is not love, but ego.

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Invisible adalah satu track terbaru dari salah satu solois favorit saya, Zara Larsson. Yay. Track ini dirilis untuk theme song Netflix Series berjudul Klaus. Invisible adalah lagu yang membuat saya terharu begitu saya pertama kali mendengarkannya. The greatest thing you’ll ever know is invisible. Satu lagu yang benar-benar langsung saya suka terutama karena suara mbak Zara yang tidak pernah tidak saya suka. Huhu. Love buat mbak Zara pokoknya. How many words does it really take to make a change? How many fights is it gonna take to convince what joy could bring? Lirik ini nyambung sekali dengan kegiatan saya menonton serial gundam bulan lalu, hihi. Lirik lainnya yang membuat saya terharu adalah : You can’t take it, steal it, but you can always be it. Ya benar, sesuatu yang selalu diperebutkan ternyata ada dalam diri kita sendiri.

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Paprika adalah lagu yang diciptakan oleh solois hits Yonezu Kenshi untuk NHK Ouen Song Project. lagu ini dinyanyikan oleh grup anak-anak bernama Foorin yang selanjutnya pada tahun ini Yonezu melakukan self-cover lagu ini dengan vibe yang berbeda. Menurutnya, Paprika dia ciptakan dengan menempatkan dirinya sebagai anak-anak kembali, sehingga lagu ini mampu diterima dan dinikmati oleh anak-anak. Lagunya sendiri juga membuat saya terharu, karena menurut saya membuat saya melihat kebahagiaan, kemurnian dan kebebasan anak-anak di dalamnya. Paprika, we can make our dreams come alive. Rain or shine, we'll find a way to play again another day.

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YouTube (Foorin Team E) (English version)

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As usual, even though I made this post for the first week of December messages, this might resonate to you anytime, so don't stick to the time. Whenever you see this post, its messages are for you. Another thing is my previous Monthly Message for December turns out to have 1001 words in it. So happy to see this mirrored number recently. I believe there will be more exciting great things happening in December to close this 2019 and welcome 2020. Yeah.

I drew the random weekly keywords at the same time as the monthly one, I got fresh for the first week along with the images of a bowl of soup, snowman, wheel and ring, also the color of orange. I feel that all of them are related to each other, so let’s get started. 

This week’s keyword is fresh.

As I mentioned in this month’s monthly message, December theme is a new start. The first week will be a fresh start. You might feel uneasy for the new things and changes you haven’t experienced before, but it’s okay. You have been living for many years and going through many unfamiliar and new things. You keep growing and you take a lot of knowledge from them. Starting a new start, you will experience freshness in your life along with foreign things which might make you both feeling uneasy and inspired at the same time.

Related post : Monthly Message : A New Start

You will be okay. You are going to learn some valuable things and incorporate them into your life in order to expand. Freshness can also means stepping out of your routine. But, you don’t have to go beyond your limit in order to experience new things. Know your needs. Stop and take a rest when you need it. Be gentle to yourself. It’s okay to start slow with only one step forward. You may take any necessary steps you need at the moment, no rules, no standards, you are your own ruler of your life. You are the one who decides and knows which ones the best for you. 

Related post : Trust the Journey

By keep going the necessary steps, you will feel centered in your journey. No need to rush, no need to hurry. People might take 100 steps, others might only take one step, you can’t compare everyone to you. Nobody is the best, nobody is the worst in this life, everyone has their own story and kingdom to rule. It’s your freedom to create as you want to. What do you want your life look like? What lifestyle do you want? Start small right now.

You may meet people who are similar to you, who will help you along this journey. You are not alone, you are going to receive guidance you need to keep going. Be open for the messages from your surroundings whether it’s from people, things or events. When you ask for help, it will come from anywhere. 

Since I saw orange as the color theme for this first week, I feel that you are going more inspired by these changes, you are going to get creativity boost and the ability to express it in your daily life. Your creativity will inspire you to take the next step and to encourage you to feel the joy of life trip. You are definitely going to succeed when you don’t stop. Just keep showing and spread the goodness. You will receive what you have sent to the world. What’s meant for you will certainly come, it’s on the way.

Related post : Don't Worry, Your Gift is on The Way

Note : orange means creativity, soup means warmth and gentleness, snowman means pure, wheel means changes and ring means offer. In this new fresh start, you will feel inspired and more creative, you have to provide warmth and gentleness for yourself, as this might feel weird because you haven’t experienced these changes, don’t beat yourself up for the mistakes and fears you might have. It’s important to know that you are not alone, life will offer you some help and guidance through people and circumstances.

Weekly journal prompts :

1. If you could choose to be one fictional character, who would you be? Why?

2. What makes you happy?

3. When you meet someone for the first time, what good first impression do you hope to leave with them?

4. Who is someone famous you'd like to meet?

5. If you had a month of free time to learn a new hobby, what would it be?

Hello! We are about to welcome December in days, it’s time to execute one of my plans for this blog. As I said in the previous post, I will have weekly message section which contains any random messages I get for each week. I want this new section to help more  people. Even though I write it for each week and month, the messages are timeless. They are meant for you if you accidentally find and read them even 2 weeks or months after being published.

Since it would be weekly messages, I also create monthly message which covers all the weekly messages I got for a month. Monthly message will be more like a big theme for the month which contains 4 or 5 sub themes for each week. I’ve started the trial for weekly message section this last week of November. Have you checked it out? It turned out well, I like the card I made. Also, the messages I wrote is magically resonated to myself. This last week of November was a bit tough, but as I read my own post, I got relieved and continued to face the challenges. I’ve added some elements here and there for December weekly messages, it’ll have 5 journal prompts each week, so it’s suitable for you to explore yourself using journaling section. 

I planned to make it fun, so if you are interested to use some journaling prompts I provided each week, you can share your journaling stuff using #lailivingjournal both in twitter or instagram. No need to tag nor follow me. I only want to know how people use their journal. Please look forward to the next weekly messages.

Okay.

So, for next month, I got hummingbird as the main theme, followed by the images of rainbow, crown, bus and bell. It’s a new start. December brings a new start. 

Fun fact, my UI version for my phone is also named  hummingbird. So I got excited when hummingbird appeared as this month theme. Hummingbird represents joy, balance, inner peace, lightness, independence, resiliency, life enjoyment and being in the present moment, and infinity.

A new start requires ending and letting go of the old which are no longer serving you. In order to fly lightly, you have to release the stuff which weigh you down. It’s sometimes not easy to let go of the things we used to be with for long time, old relationship which feels not good or toxic for you, old stuff you are no longer using, old habits, or old thinking patterns which limit yourself. You will let go of those things in order to fly toward your dreams, to enjoy the life and find the peace inside. When you release the old, you give the space for the new to come. So, say good-bye happily and be grateful for the lessons they have given to you, and be open for the new to fill your space.

By releasing the old or stuffs which weigh you down, then you are able to enjoy the life to the fullest, being in the present moment, appreciating small things and continuing your journey on the path we have chosen. Letting go isn’t about a shift from the dark into the light only, but also choosing what your heart tells you to do. It shouldn’t always be easy as the life is about sweet, sour, bitter, plain and spicy stuff. The happiness is about accepting those tastes in life. You don’t have to feel the sweetness everyday and beat yourself up when your life gets bitter. It’s life. It needs contrast to balance. When you are able to accept the ups and downs, then you will find the beauty of life. 

Hummingbird also represents independence. You have the freedom to be happy, to choose the happiness to be in your life, and to feel the inner peace you deserve. Your life is fully yours, nobody else can rule it. You are the king of your life, you create the rules for yourself. How do you want your life to be? What rewards would you like to give for yourself? What advice would you give when you make mistakes or fails? Set your boundaries, how large your kingdom would be? When you have set everything for your own life, then you automatically are not allowing other people to lead it. What’s empty will be filled by something. 

A new start is about to begin. Welcome it with open heart and some space in your heart. Be open for the differences in life. Rainbow doesn’t have one single color, so does your life. No matter how many colors a rainbow has, it’s beautiful, right? Differences make it beautiful. You can live different life from others, you are allowed to think differently, those differences don’t make you less or more than other people. Be open for the new adventure which offers new different things. Be alert with what life wants to say to you through signs, and be grateful for it. Allow yourself to experience many things, that your future self will be grateful and proud of you.

“I’m grateful that you were not giving up that day, so that the now me is exist today. You can look at me and be unsure of who I am, but I am the same person you were that time which has grown up and stepped into another level of live. I’m grateful that you have given me the chance to be who I am today.”

Note : rainbow represents harmony, crown means power, bell means alert, and bus means adventure. You are about to find harmony and inner peace, take back your power as a king of your own life, stay alert in the present moment to enjoy even the simplest smallest things, and face the new adventure life offers to you in this new start. Be happy. You are growing. You are on the right path. You are you who will make the future you be proud of you.

Title picture and graphics by lailiving

Bakcground photo by Tomoko Uji